Anyway, i was just thinking about a few things. Like how its not normal to be so attached to someone that they are like a part of you, your other half, and you realize that your life is just empty and boring without them. And you realize that if it werent for them, you might be dead now, cause they caught you at a time in your life when you were just about ready to give up. And you realize how this person so completely changed your life, that you might not even be the same person you were two months ago. And then you wonder whats gonna happen. Like if its all gonna end. Cause i have hope and faith, and he has hope and faith, but there are little things that are just off. Not off enough to change anything, or be upset about even, just off.
But you know there is something there when you care more about that person then life itself, and youd do anything for them. you trust them with all youve got. youd die for them. and no i am not falling deeply and crazily into this. and its not like before. its not like ken or josh or dave or anyone else. its different this time. its genuine. its caring a responsability. And love. And i want it and i dont, and i get so confused sometimes. And sometimes i just tell myself to shut up because this is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. And id give him the world for that.