depressedmaybe its me...i mean, i know i am not the prettiest person. i know he has a thing with 2 girls, but now that he has that, cant he just do it with me sometime? it was never that bad before...or was it... i dont know. i guess this is just me being stupid and depressed. like nothing matters anymore anyway. i guess i am just going one day to the next, waiting for the day when it will just be too much and too painful and then it can finally be over...but why cant i just do it now...
i guess annie is coming over today...i know hes gonna wanna do it then.but i wont. he doesnt even want her to come over. how can he have a relationship with her if he already doesnt want to see her? sometimes i just feel like giving up and giving in. but how is that fair to me? i guess i am doing it already by letting things get to me...whatever.
