sp not much has been going on. i think i have been on a downward spiral. though no one realizes it. i practically tried to kill myself the other night. vito wanted nothing to do with me that night (wednesday?) so i got really upset, cut myself, took a bunch of sleeping medicine, took a bunch of my meds, and just went to sleep. about an our later i woke up and felt like i was gonna die. lol i wanted it to just happen, i didnt want to feel it. my stmach felt like it was ripping apart. ugh, so i threw up for like a half an hour. i was so dizzy and sick i didnt know what to do with myself. so i went back to lay down. a little while later i turned on the tv, the cable was back and i watched the queer as folk episode that i missed. vito came to watch it with me. after that, i think we just went to sleep.weirdness.
yesterday was my psychiatrist appointment. i wont even go into that. the guy is a jackass and thats about it. oh and my medicaid isnt working so i might not get my meds. thats all i need.
so today me annie and possibly vito, are going to the lesbian film festival at the center. that should be fun. something to do i guess. i just feel so yucky. i am sick, or allergies or something and i hate it. my dad did get my cd burner to work so thats fun times too. life is so weird.