I look like such shit this morning. I dont even know what to do with myself. I ran out of good clothes cause i really need to do my laundry so i'm stuck wearing crap. Andrea might be giving me a ride to class today which would be much appreciated. yay i'm going to class. I'm getting my music theory test back today. the one i know i didnt do good on. Thats gonna make my day suck big flickerstick balls. I might have to go to South campus today to pick up my medication cause i keep forgetting to when i am actually there. Prozac here we come.
Today is tuesday. I dont really like tuesday. Buffy is on tuesday but i cant watch it cause we dont have fucking UPN here. So Tuesdays now suck. well off to class i go...
I am soooo pissed!!! I got a fucking 60% on my music theory test!!! i never get that low. That brings down my entire average. If i dont do better then a 2.0 this semester i am gonna be kicked out of college!!! i sooo cannot go home! now i'm gonna be uspet for like the rest of the week. The teacher is a fucking jerk too cause he wanted us to put the answers he liked , if it was right but not what he wanted he took points off. I'm like give me a fucking break!!!! i hate people!
today sucked. a lot. but then again, when does it not. I feel so very empty. I dont know if i've ever felt emptier. It feels a lot worse when you know you have friends yet you are still so alone. Me and Josh are just not cool anymore. I dont know whats going on there, but its just not right. So thats upsetting me really bad. I feel so depressed right now and i dont know what to do about it. I never do.
i put up some spiderweb in the hallway today. it looks cool.
tomorrow is the felicity premiere. i am really looking forward to that. i might go smoke up tonight. thats the only thing that can fix this shitty day.