i cut myself tonight. i actually slit my wrist. it was worse then ever before and somehow it felt good. Like a sharp relief. I just cant deal anymore. I wanna leave and i dont even care about who i leave behind. They are all dissapointing anyway. I knew if i expected too much i would just be let down. I just cant keep doing this anymore. Its not my fault and i get that now. I get that it will be like this forever, so just fuck it.