October 18th, 2001

Felix- to the left

once again

havnt seen josh all day, he didnt even stop by to say goodnight. whatever. i dont care anymore.

everyones trying to give me advice today. thanks but no thanks. this is not new to me, its not like i havnt tried it all before. but whatever. someone told me that a life is a terrible thing to waste. yeah no kidding, thats why i want to die, cause being here is such a waste.

poor noel, i know how he feels. poor felicity, i know how she feels too. so lost, so very lost.
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Felix- to the left

addendum

despite all teh crap that went on, I of course have to put on a happy face to all the people i know. I did have an ok time last night hanging out with Maggie and Erica watching Dawsons creek and Felicity. We had diner together too and just sat and talked. I hate acting happy when i am not but i figured it wouldnt hurt to hang out with them. Then we cut up apples and dipped them in chocolate and caramel while we read magazines and watched scary movie for the billionth time. I dont know whats with me. these are good things so why cant i be happy?
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