November 9th, 2001

Felix- to the left

gotta buy the world a coke and lie here *naked* with my girl....

so much for good days....

I am so stressed and exhausted right now that i am gonna have a total break down any second. I feel like evrything is just falling apart and i am trying to hold it together but sooner or later I am gonna break. ANd then its like one thing after another, after another, after another. when does it end?? and i cant even go to sleep. I just stare at the wall....

I went to a stress mnagement thingy that Josh was doing today. It was cool and fun but it kinda made me more stressed out cause i started to think a lot about things. I dunno. ANd we had RA evaluations today, so of course Josh got good comments from me =)

On another note, i wsa listening to the Flickerstick cd all day and i really noticed how you can hear Cory's voice so much more on this cd and it is really great! like i know they made fun of his non singing abilities but i think he sounds good on the cd. its very calming to me to hear Flickerstick. They are like my one constant right now.
  • Current Music
    Coke ~Flickerstick
Felix- to the left

sleep to dream....

I am soooo hungry! but everyone i know is either busy, not here or sleeping hehe. Josh went to the coffee place and i was supposed to go with him but I am so way tooo tired. I can still feel the sleeping drugs in my system...poop

I think I am gonna go to a play tonight with Andrea and Mary. I dont know if i can handle leaving my room though. I woke up at like 2:30, watched prey for a while and now i completely want to go back to bed. I feel like total shit. I really need some more sleep to feel better.
  • Current Music
    Favorite Things ~Incubus
Felix- to the left

ladida

i dont know what to write. I just really felt like writing...

My roomate never woke me up to go to the play so i missed it. I really hate her.

Josh was telling me about being a rockstar, and so to Katie, you already are a rockstar =) i know i am. its all about whats inside of you.

I just want to sleep for the rest of the weekend. I feel like I can't get up. I don't want to get up. I just want to be alone and not care about anyone or anything. i always try to figure stuff out and it just doesnt seem to work...
  • Current Music
    once and again