November 26th, 2001

Felix- to the left


Ok so i didnt get to update yesterday like i planned and i just dont feel like writing down what happened over break. poop... lets just say it was fun, but good to be back at school again. i got some awsome shoes and some shirts from hot topic which always make my day no matter what mood i am in. And i got a few christmas presents for people which i love doing. Being in the city was weird, and i almost didnt want to be there. that is sad and scary for me.

so lets just cut to yesterday. I got back and slept for like the whole day until Josh woke me up at 4:45. then i watched Buffy and just sat around being hungry. hehe Andrea got back soon after that and we hung out for a while. It was sooo good to see her. SO then Josh stops by after his RA duty and we talekd for a while which was fun. ANdrea is thinking of coming to the city with us for christmas break. that would be so fantabulous.

Most of the rest of the day i occupied myself by watching that one scene from Buffy OVER AND OVER again. OMG i can die happy now. That was the freakin awsomest scene ever. I didnt see the rest of the episode hehe cause i dont get upn poop. but i got that one clip and that just made my day..hell it made my week!!!

And then Josh tells us that he broke up with his girlfriend. I dont know whether to be extatic or upset for him at the moment so i am just like oh...sorry josh! lol he is sooo single right now!!! I dont know what to do! i never thought i would even have a chance! but i dont know what to do. SO while i ponder this, i am off to class, which i actually woke up early for =) ahh! help! josh! ahh! lol
  • Current Music
    walk through the fire ~buffy musical
Felix- to the left


sometimes i feel like i am the only person left that will be alone forever. All anyone talks about is their relationships and the people that they love who love them back. and i have no one. I have no last phone call, no last goodnight, no last i love you. no nothing. just this big empty void inside of me that i can feel so bad. And i try to ignore it so much but sometimes i just cant anymore and it hurts so much. i just want someone to love me and hug me and be with me passionatly. I cant go through this life alone. i just cant.
  • Current Music
    Goodbye to You ~Michelle Branch