its like almost 6am and i have to get up in an hour. hahaha no class for me tomorrow. i dont even know why i bother. I am STARVING to death but i just cant bring myself to eat. its driving me absolutely nuts. i did have a slice of pizza today. a very small one. but hey, better then nothing i guess.
I went with Andrea and Josh to the thrift store and to get christmas lights. They are so cute. So Josh definitly got back together with his girlfriend. it sux but atleast i dont have to worry about how to get him now. ah the little joys in life. yeah right.
so i worked on my Buffy website tonight. I am going a little Buffy crazy lately. but its ok. I found This tuesdays ep on a new page online so i can watch it with Andrea!! i am so excited! i hate not having UPN here. it really kills me. ahhh like my new icon? teehee =)
i want someone. i need someone. i really need a girl...
So yeah, i woke up at 7. and hour after i went to bed. hehe. i thought i was gonna die. poop. I took a shower and left with Andrea but i couldnt go to class. plus i rememebred i had a test that i totally didnt study for, so freak that! hehe i am such a dork. I went to starbucks..ick, then i got the guitar world magazine with Flickerstick in it!!!!! I almost died!!!! ahhh Fletcher.
I am doing the weirdest thing right now. I actually didnt wear black today. I am wearing like normal people clothes. I feel REALLY weird though. I mean, i am totally decked out in like jeans and like a light purple shirt, and i have a french braid in my hair. plus..I AM NOT WEARING BLACK EYELINER!!!! ahhh!!!! death to the world. hehe. I dont know why i am doing this. This weird phase hits me once in a while. But dude, a guy actually checked me out, which just makes me feel worse cause that means people dont like me for who i am, they like me when i am not myself....*sigh*
SO i watched the Buffy musical again. I realized that I am totally head over heals in love with Tara. I know a lot of people dont like her, but there is something so amazingly wonderful about her. ugh, his is so like me to fall in love with a tv person. dorkfest all the way....
SO hmm... i watched the newest ep of Buffy with Andrea, then i just kinda sleepwalked the rest of my day away. I really have no idea what i did. I talked to Erica and Tiffany for a while. That was fun. i miss them.
Things just arent the way they used to be. I really hate change. Some of it is good, but i miss the way things used to be. i dunno.
So then i finally went to sleep at 5:3o but had to wake up at 6:30 to go to Josh's concert but it turned out that he told us the wrong place and time so we just came back home. Now me and Andrea are trying to burn the freakin buffy musical songs onto a cd. obsessed much? yeah....
no food. my body is trying to commit suicide? i think thats what someone said. i am drinking lots of water though....thats good no?
Tomorrow we are filming for Josh's movie. I get to wear my Halloween costume again. yipppeee. except its sleeveless and i have to hide the cuts i made two nights ago. i hate this, yet i still do it. I wish I could just dissapear from this world.