April 1st, 2002

Felix- to the left

home sweet home

who would have thought that i would love buffalo so much? it was such a relief to finally get back here. The flight took way too long and i was getting anxious already. i just had a bad feeling about the whole thing. But it went pretty well. Then Vito picked me up from the airport which i felt bad about cause i didnt want him to go out of his way, but it was so wonderful of him to do. Then we went to eat and i was gonna get my tongue pierced but the girl that does the piercings wasnt there. So i am gonna do that tomorrow.

After that we came back to my room and i unpacked while he just hung out and talked to Mary. it was really good to see Andrea again. she looked really nice. I feel bad that i didnt get to see her later tonight, but she probably went to Jasons. Then Vito and i fooled around, which i hate calling it that cause to me its a lot more then that at this point, although i know he would probably hate me saying so. Anyway, it was very nice and i really missed him. he looked very cute today, like more then usual. although he is always cute. hehe. then we watched Original Sin with Angelina Jolie who i absolutely adore. it was a very bizarre movie, but i liked it. she is breath taking no matter what she does. hehe

i like how things are changing for me. it wasnt pleasant to go home for those few days, but it helped me realize how great stuff was back here. i never thought i would be saying that, but its true. and i dont hate things as much as i used to anymore. its a nice feeling to have.
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Felix- to the left

april fools day

This is probably the first april fools where i didnt play a joke on someone. lol. you can tell i am preoccupied. I think my friends are starting to feel it too. but i feel better then ever.

i went to class, and then vito and i went to get my tongue pierced. it hurt like hell but i think it will be worth it. i really cant eat though lol. that might be a good thing too. then we hung out and went to the record store and tops to pick up a few things. We came back to my room and i was just in a really weird mood but he made me feel better, like usual. it was just really nice to be with him today. we started talking about stuff though and i realized that i really hate talking about my stuff. it just puts me in a weird mood, like i want to be huged but hurt at the same time. must be a dad thing again. but he did actually make me feel better which is usually a hard thing to do.

so after a really good night, vito decided to go home and i went to hang out with josh and andrea. i feel like i havnt seen them in ages, so we reconnected. they are all pretty busy too though with their own stuff so it was ok.

i really like how stuff is working out for me right now. I am not doing totally great in every sense, but i am putting myself back together and thats all that really counts at this moment in time.

and in a dream i'm a different me,
with a perfect you, we fit perfectly
and for once in my life i feel complete...
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