April 27th, 2002

Felix- to the left

*these precious illusions in my head*

last night was really interesting. id really rather not get into it. I just want to remind myself that this always happens when i do stuff i dont really want to do. it ends badly the next day and then i blame everyone else when i should be blaming myself.

anyway...today i woke up at 4. i feel really sick and gross. i took a shower and now i am getting ready to go have dinner with andrea, josh, jim, jon and vito and then afterwards we are gonna goto a comedy club. i dont really wanna go, but tonight is a special hang out with the group night, so i have to go. today is just one of those, i wanna lock myself in my room and sleep forever kind of nights. The urge to cut was unbelievable. I still cant believe i didnt do it. i was imagining it and visioning it and almost feeling it...but it didnt do it.

ugh..this is getting harder and harder...
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Felix- to the left

well doesnt that kinda suck...

i'm a foundation. what type of make up are you?

quiz made by muna.


anyway, we had diner, which was really nice. Vito came over half way through it. i was so happy to see him. and he looked really good =) i felt really bad for being so weird to him earlier. So we ate and then we went to the comedy club, which was pretty cool. I have never been to one of those things before and i really enjoyed it. i love watching them on tv, so this was pretty cool. So now we are just sitting around doing our own things.Vito is in the lounge grading papers. I guess we'll talk some time later tonight. Unless he wants to go home. I really need to chill out and stop being such a freak.

i kinda didnt want to come home so early, especially on a saturday night, but everyone just wants to be at home and chill i guess. I have to talk ot my parents about how i am getting home. they want to come pick me up. I want to help Vito move his stuff too, and go home with him. I love doing damage control 3 times a day.not.
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