These past few days have been hell. Its been sooo stressful and up and down and all over the place. I really hope it doesnt stay like this cause i cant sit there and cry and be sad every day. I know he loves me and he cares and hopefully this will just pass. i dont really know what else to write. I am so drained and tired and just wanting this all to end. This week i am gonna start looking for a job. Hopefully i can find one close to the apartment. Vito isnt gonna start for a while. I think we just need to unpack and settle in first. I love hima nd i just want this to work out so bad.