July 23rd, 2002

Felix- to the left

shallow graves for shallow girls...

still completely depressed. nothing is hlping. and vito keeps getting depressed cause of me too. not fair. i feel like i have to be eternally happy so he will be as well...

i forgot to mention that the time we did e...last time, it wasnt e afterall...it was heroin...go tompkins square park, and us for getting drugs there...

tomorrow will be a better day he says...unless its not and i am just as depressed. i feel like i just want to lay in bed forever and think of nothing...but i cant. cause i have plans...ugh
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    depressed depressed
Felix- to the left

havent felt the way i feel today in so long...

Today started out like huge shit, but then it got better. i dont know how, it just got better. maybe it was the fact that vito was starting to get super mad that i was so down...which kinda sucked but i guess it snapped me back into reality. i'm still depressed but i am trying to put it out of my mind so i can have fun tonight.

all day i have just been really hungry, and really wanting chocolate, and starbucks...hehe. and i cant wait to go back to that coffee place. maybe we will go tomorrow.

so the concert tonight should be fun. i'm going with vito, annie, dana and jenn. i havent seem them for a while so that should be cool. hopefully i can be in a better mood with Vito. i love him too much to upset him like that and make him think its his fault...
  • Current Music
    incubus ~nice to know you