July 26th, 2002

Felix- to the left

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It's been one of those mornings where you havent slept all night cause you have just been doing...nothing...hanging out maybe? but its ok cause you feel like your whole life is ahead of you. and all these horrible things are looming infront of you, and all you can do is laugh, and be with the person you love. i told him i would be with him forever if he would let me. i know he didnt like that, but its true. and i can honestly promise that too him...

so now we are going to go to sleep after he gets back from getting some bagels...and then we are going to get up late as usual...he is going to hate himself for never doing anything. i will be in a good mood until he doesnt really want to be around me...then i will go lay down and get upset, and then i will realize that its late and we should start getting ready cause we actually have plans and need to go do things. so reluctantly he gets up...trying to get me to say he doesnt have to go first...and then he gets in the tub and everything gets a little better...

And i just know how it is cause this is how it always is...and i love him no matter what, and i wont give up so easily because i have to deal with bad times, or things that are not so great...and i will stick with it cause thats what love is all about...
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Felix- to the left

yeah baby yeah!

Got up late again...what else is new. I got a call from my mom saying that i possibly have a job interview on monday. go me. i should be happy but its just making me natious and nervous. whatever...

annie is coming ocer at 7 and we are gonna go see austin powers, then we are coming back to my place so she can change because i think she is more poser goth then she likes to think. she doesnt want to walk around all dressed up. i'm like dude, i walk around like that every day...whatever. so then we are gonna go to club dark, which i hope is fun cause we really need a place to go to on the weekends. what sux is its only open friday and sat. but still, its all good...

i'm a little down today, but not so much. i didnt sleep very well so that could be it. Vito still wants to hook up with annie tonight. i told him i would even though i am not really attracted to her in that way, because i want to make him happy. he wants to have like actual intercourse with her though which from her viewpoint, i dont think is such a great idea. it would be really hot, but i just think its too much too soon. but we'll see cause shes sleeping over so i guess we will have plenty of time...

i'm starting to think of how much i need to go back to buffalo, even if its just for a visit. there are people there that i need to see so bad...and i love it there. i know it will make me happy...i feel like i will eventually be choosing between what makes me more happy...i hate it.
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