September 22nd, 2002

Felix- to the left

everything - lifehouse

i love you baby. i love you more than anything...



find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now
'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything
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Felix- to the left

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i am so tired. tired of everything. i just want to sleep forever. i bled too much and i just need to sleep. id ont want to deal with this anymore. its just too much for me. too much pain. i love him so much. i do all i can. what else can i do? what eles? i am sorry...i just want to sleep and never wake up.
Felix- to the left

love rollercoaster

sometimes when it cant get any worse...it gets better. i reeally thought i was going to die. i really wanted to. i'm kinda glad i didnt. Vito woke up and asked me if i wanted to go to dunkin donuts with him. so we went and i finally got a chance to talk to him about how i felt. so we decided that i wasnt gonna leave, and he wasnt going to break up with me. big relief. i love him sooo much. leaving him would break my heart beyond repair...leaving him without trying. i mean, i know eventually one day it might happen and it will be better to go out seperate ways...but i dont want to just give up knowing that i didnt put everything i could, into it. so for now we are good. i need to give him more space, and try to be more sensitive towards annie, and not cry so much. i can do two out of the three...as for the crying...well i am too depressed on a regular basis not to do that but god i will try. i want this to work so much. i know we haev sooo many good things to offer eachother. we can give eachother everything weve ever wanted if we just work at it. i know it.

i love you baby...
xoxo csilla
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