May 14th, 2003

Felix- to the left

you love me with all your fucking heart

this morning i was gonna write that everything is going to shit in my life. everything but my relationship with vito. that was blossoming. it was getting so wonderful...

but now, i dont know. he is so completely not understanding and like, blames everything on me lately. i am so sorry i am depressed. i am so sorry the meds were making me so sick that i felt like i would die. i am so sorry i stopped taking them because of that, even when my doctor REFUSED to give me new meds. what the fuck was i supposed to do?? i am so sorry my life is a fucking inconvenience.

so i will just go get high and cut myself and then no one has to care. there is no one around me anyway...

maybe when i am gone people with start to appreciate me...
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Felix- to the left

yeah

so i give in...

i am going to meet him for lunch. i just love him too much. i cant help it. he calls me and i hear his voice, and i melt...

for you <3
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