October 10th, 2003

Felix- to the left

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i dont think he wants me here anymore.


why does it always seem like i try the hardest out of anyone to make this work. i love him so much.

i am so sorry. i am always so sorry :(
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    depressed depressed
Felix- to the left

oh how i miss you.

so it was supposed to be movie night. but things got all messed up. i think we are both too depressed to deal with eachother right now. we just need to understand eachother. i can do it. but i dont know about him. i hope he tries. and then today we are supposed to go shopping at the staten island mall. but i dont know if he will want to do that with me either. atleast he let me lay with him for a few minutes. and got cannolies. and i still love him with all my heart. i hope he does too.

now onto the survey stolen from das_panzer :)

9 THINGS I LOOK FORWARD TO
1: hanging out with vito
2: going shopping
3: getting my packages
4: suicidegirls working for me again lol
5: loosing weight
6: being happy
7: going back to school
8: being in buffalo with vito
9: vito getting better
8 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
1: stupidity
2: not having enough food
3: posers
4: people that are too skinny
5: always being uncertain
6: things costing too much money
7: when vito ignores me
8: my paresnts
6 THINGS I LOVE
1: vito
2: vito's smile
3: my hair lol
4: shopping
5: snow
6: buffalo
5 PEOPLE I WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH
1: vito
2: cristina
3: josh
4: andrea
5: vito
3 MOVIES I COULD WATCH OVER& OVER AGAIN
1: speed
2: american beauty
3: clueless
2 OF MY FAVORITE SONGS AT THE MOMENT
1: maroon 5 - harder to breath
2: christina aguilara - fighter
1 THING I'D RATHER BE DOING
1: making love to vito, and him actually wanting to.
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    sad sad