August 18th, 2004

Felix- to the left

athens 2004

so yeah im sitting around trying to put some time into the olympics hehe. it sounds retarded but i used to watch it ALL the time when i was younger. like my family used to sit through the whole thing. especially the gymnastics. and like its a big event. so i feel like i should be watching it cause i always used to, and because i dont wanna look back at it and think i missed out on a world wide event

i find that i do this with evrything. holidays and all. i get retardedly obsessed with them cause they should be important or something. And the gymnastics are on now which is mainly what i used to watch so im like ok atleast ill watch that.

so here i am watching the olympics. and i dont recognize anyone. its kinda sad actually. but i guess its been years. so yeah.
  • Current Mood
    anxious anxious
Felix- to the left

oh fuck

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
  • Current Music
    Evanescence