December 14th, 2004

Felix- to the left

2004 meme

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
finished every single class i started, and dont think ive failed any either

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i try not to make any so....no.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes

5. What countries did you visit?
canada

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
more time to relax

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
dec 9th. my grandma died.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
staying alive

9. What was your biggest failure?
not doing more hands on things for the kerry/edwards campaign(sp?)

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
oh yeah. huge throat infection.emergency room. and i fell down and hurt my knee more this year than my whole life put tgether.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my black ruffly skirt

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
this year? my mom and dad. they were so strong this year through my grandmas sickness.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
oh god. a few people. and at times vito.

14. Where did most of your money go?
alcohol and cover at the continental:p pretty clothes too.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
hehe well...coheed and cambria concert, halloween and stargate. lol

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
any coheed song. avril-happy ending lol

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? happier in a way. and then not in some other
II. thinner or fatter? fatter. i gained back most of the weight i lost last year.
III. richer or poorer? broke but richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
painting

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with the family.

21. [like last year, there is no question 21]

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
in a way.

23. How many one-night stands?
haha. um. one.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Stargate SG-1 and CSI:

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
yeah

26. What was the best book you read?
the handmaids tale

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
coheed and cambria

28. What did you want and get?
my green converse sneakers

29. [apparently, there's no question 29 this year either]

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
spongebob squarepants ;)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went out to eat for lunch with vito, then everything else was kind of crappy. i probably went to sleep.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
vito getting a car

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
black, black, and black. with a little red and pink.

34. What kept you sane?
stargate

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
gale harold and michael shanks

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the whole gay marriage issue and the stupid fucktards trying to change the ammendment

37. Who did you miss?
vito....when he was always too busy. and annie

38. Who was the best new person that you met?
ken and mike

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
people can change so much in the blink of an eye.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
When I counted up my demons
Saw there was one for every day
With the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away

So if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

When you thought that it was over
You could feel it all around
And everybody's out to get you
Don't you let it drag you down

'Cos if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

If you ever feel neglected
If you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost

Singing out
Oh, oh, oh, yeah
Oh, oh, yeah
Oh, oh, yeah
Everything's not lost

~Coldplay
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Felix- to the left

sadness

so im back.

ive been so bad at updating lately. i dont even know what ive missed. i hate that. last week of classes were blah. and i basically missed the last day cause thats when my dad called about my grandma. i was hysterical but i decided i had to take care of things. so vito took a cab to campus with me and i took my cognitive psych test. i probably did so bad. i ha to re read everything like 7 times and the words were swimming infront of my face. ugh. then i dropped off my english portfolio and my womens studies project. it was so hard to be there and not burst into tears. after that i came home and slept the rest of the day.

the next day i met vito on campus and his mom drove us to the airport and we went to nyc. the flight was pretty good and it was good to be there with vito. we took the super shuttle to my parents apartment and ther was so much damn traffic. my sister was there already so vito lay down and me and her decided to go get food. i miss being able to just go get food. so she got chinese and i got kfc. vito woke up when we got back and we all ate together. then we took the subway down to port authority and took the cab to new jersey. i cried so much on the way there. it was so weird to be going there and knowing my grandma wasnt going to be there. we could never see her laugh or hold her hand or show her anything ever again.

when we got there we waited for a long time and then my aunt and her boyfriend or whatever came to pick us up. she was so damn drunk and was just going on and on. it was pretty upsetting but i just ignored it. we got home like 40 minutes later cause she was being obnoxious. i was just happy to see my mom and dad. we all talked and just sat around. it was hard. i wanted my grandma to be there so bad. i dont remember what else we did that night but i think we just went to bed. we were all so damn tired.

the next days were very very hard. i dunno if i wanna write about it all yet.


last night when i got back i was so tired i thought i was gonna die. but i needed to do something. so i showered and talked with vito for a while, then i went to michelles with ken and gt pretty drunk. then we went to nietzchiez (sp?) and drank some more. i deserved it. then i came home pretty drunk. tons of snow on the ground. and i just passed out, dont really remember anything from when i got home. woke up today at like 4pm and ive just been hanging around not really doing anything. Today is vitos birthday so i went to the store with michelle and i got an icecream cake and cordon bleus cuase he loves those. i got some other stuff too cause i was so hungry. i got eggrolls hehe. and cocktail sauce cause we got so much shrimp on sale last time.lol.

anyway now im watching earthsea and waiting for vito to get home so we can celebrate befor he goes to sleep.


little things remind me of her. and its so hard.
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