so thats my life right now. its ok to be home though. not as bad as i thought. but this is day one. i hope it stays like this. i finally saw my sisters hair and it looks so cute. this week i plan on looking for jobs for dwayne, and an apartment for when he comes back hopefully in august. if he gets a job by then, he wont go back to canada, otherwise he will just be here for a week or so. hopefully i can help him with that. and hopefully i will be able to work things out with vito. i still love him so much. even if i dont live there, i just want some time with him. some time to think and sort things out. hopefully that will happen.
i feel like i am not even here right now. i feel like i am not even alive.