i hate starting to do drugs at 4am when there is nothing to do anyway but sit around in my apartment. or teh sun is gonna come up soon and i hate being out then. i hate people. i wanted to go out at 2. but waiting for vito is like a lost cause. he gets stuck on one thing for like 5 freakin hours and then the night is dead.
i should just go to sleep. my cuts are itching me so bad. they are probably gonna get so infected. i had to though. yesterday sucked so bad. i just couldnt take it anymore. i have a fucking doctors appointment tomorrow which i so do not want to go to. and then my sister is coming which will be so good. we are probably gonna go out to eat for my birthday cause they are not gonna be here saturday. that blows cause i just know vito is gonna sleep all day and i will have no one to celebrate with. wooo.