angrythen i wake up today and he is like goodmorning, cause he is trying to show me that he is nicer when i dont bother him...lol. he was drawing the redecoration of his room. so i went to eat a mini muffin and a yoohoo and watched him. that was pretty fun cause he was trying to draw kelvin and he kept changing the picture to something else hehe. so then he wanted to lay down and i was still tired so i layed down too. he went out to get money for more c. then he called the guy. then we were supposed to snort and go out cause he promised he would do this one for me and we would finall go out. but then when he got the stuff he said he wanted to be alone and do it himself. i knew once he got started he would just do that, and alone. so i got upset and went back to sleep. this was at like 10. so i wake up at 2 and he is still doing it and completel forgot about me, and now nothing is open anymore. way to go. so he starts arguing with me that if i would have helped him he could have been done with it a long time ago. whatever. now he wont tell me where the measuring cup is so i can make something to eat cause i havent eaten all day, cause i wont help him. real nice caring boyfriend. hes got to stop this shit before it becomes more important than me. and then i wont ever be around to help him. maybe if i tell him that he will be nice and apologetic to me.
sometimes i wonder why i try so fucking hard when nobody else is. its always me this and me that, but nevermind if csilla is upset. then its like world war three. well i have feelings too. not just you.
