i hate nights where everyone ditched me. people i dont even want to hang out with ditch me. and i really have no one else to go out with. so i just sit here all by my fucking self doing nothing. i thought i wasnt supposed to be so lonely anymore. i thought that aspect was suppost to change. or even if i am lonely, it would be ok if someone cared. if someone was like, i really want to, and i will try my best to when i feel better, but right now i am just too tired. that would be nice.
i am just so worn out and tired of this. i really hate my life.