but this isnt like that. this is like it used to be. i am so depressed. and its probably cause of missing him. but then why dont i just want to call him?
i feel so empty. i feel like i used to. i feel like i wanna cut and bleed and be happy about it cause i am such a fucking loser. and i havent felt like this in a really long time.
edit 8:11pm:ok so beth is coming over. maybe having a friend over will help. i hope. i wish so much that i wasnt like this.