so ya, all in all today was ok. i met some friends and we went to spot coffee which i have been dying to go to. it was really nice. it was good to hang out with peopl i felt like i could relate to ;)
but the way home was awful it took the bus like an hour and a half to get there, and thn i didnt take my meds so i was such a mess by the time i got home. i called vito all crying and i felt bad cause i hate stressing him out. but he calmed me down.
so now i still have to do a shit load of work which i want to say fuck it to but i cant. and i am so tired and stressed, and i havent eaten like all day. i so dont want to wake up in the morning. i feel like i wanna do things that i havent done in a long time. and its getting worse. its just so hard to put on a fake smile everyday.
i am so tired of this.