i guess i just feel like junk. like worthless junk that should be happy for what i have, and i shouldnt even be in this world. im sad and i make everyone else sad, so i just dont see why i should be here.
so yeah i woke up and vito wasnt there anymore. i guess he got up after i lay down and came in here to use the computer. then he got all upset when i woke up because of something he had to take care of with tali's car and so he was saying he has to take care of everyone now. and then he got all into my financial aid which always gets him upset. so then i figured id make some cookies cause he has been wanting those but he didnt want any. but he did go off to his pschiatrst appointment today so hes finally gonna get his medicine today i hope!!! that will be good :) mabe things will get better then. i really hope so.
so today is our 2 year anniversary. 2 whole years. wow. so im just gonna tr to ignore this morning and maybe the rest of the day will be ok. i feel bad cause i didnt get him anything, but he hasnt gotten his vday present yet so atleast i can give him that. i just remember how cool last year was. i wonder if he still loves me that much still.
i love him. even if i cant say it as much as i want. im sorry i guess.
happy anniversary sweetie. i love you.