i am so depressed rght now. i havent been this depressed in a long time. i cant pinpoint it right now but i know it starteed when i watched requiem for a dream. brought up too many emotions. too many things i just wanted to leave behind. for now atleast. and now im a fucking wreck. i havent wanted to cut this bad in a long time. i havent done it for so long. but this is all too much.
how did things get so fucked up.
sometmes i wish it was all a dream. dreams fade. i wish this would do.