but yesterday we went to his moms house for diner cause its joe and shirleyannes birthday on saturday so they wanted to have a family diner. i was apprehensive about going at first cause i know how joe does like me and i didnt think i should be there, but i got ready and went and i had a really good time. we stopped at joes house cause he got a new little kitty. she is soooo cute! we brought her over to vitos moms and played with her there. then we had diner and talked and dessert. it was all really good. it was nice to eat a home cooked meal hehe. and it was pretty comfortable so im glad i was there and it was ok. then we came back and vito was being all blah with me so i figured id go out and do something. mike called me to hang out so i went over there and hung out till like 6am. that whole situation is more dificult than i want it to be, but i dont really know what to do about it. oh well, no point in dwelling.
anyway then i get home and vito was just...i dont know how to explain it besides saying mean again lol. and i went to sleep trying to just not feel a thing. just needing to fall asleep before i wanted to die. sometimes i dunno what im gonna do. i just keep reminding myself its the lack of meds.
so today i woke up and just minded my own business. vito was getting ready to go to work so i just hung out in his room and he apologized to me for the way hes been acting. which made me feel a lot better cause atleast he was realizing what was going on. so yeah. thats the story.
tomorrow we might do e, or not. depending on what tali can conjur up today. or i might just go to this domination club thing. tonight i might just sit around. dont think i feel very social.