Captain of the Innuendo Squad. (brandinsbabe) wrote,
Captain of the Innuendo Squad.

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to all the times we had

god i hate feeling like this. like i lost something so precious and i know i can never get it back.

im suddenly getting the case of the music-induced-memories. also known as csilla dwelling on the past. coldplay does this to me all the time. i love coldplay to death. but everytime i listen, there is just a stream of tears. and memories come flooding back. so rapidly and so strong. and its all so clear. like im standing right it all over again. i just remember the city. walking down 70th st. going to tj;s with annie. hanging out with her at chris's apartment. sitting on my bed watching tv. and all these things make me sad. cause i think of how beautiful it was. and i know deep down maybe it wasnt. but it was something different. and it was such a part of my life. and no matter what i do i make it fade. i always think i do, but then this happend and its like my heart wants to burst. i really do miss it. all of it. i wonder about what could have been. i dont think i ever felt so much as i did then.

i cant believe i am still up at 6am.

damn coldplay.

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