sunday i went to michelles and then ken met us there and we went to marcellas. i met up with john and his friend evan, and jason was there too. i had an awsome night. i felt bad though cause everyone else seemed bored. i am way to self conscious i think hehe. so yeah it was fun and i danced a lot. and drank a lot. i ended up getting very very drunk. ugh. im starting to hate that cause i feel like all the people around me are like oh god.
today i slept alllll day. well i went to bed at like 2pm or something like that. mike came over and we stayed up doing drugs for a long time. i need to stop that too. all of this. its just making me hate myself more and more i think. and i hate being jealous of other people lives.