i hate how certain things never change. no matter how hard you try. and something inside you never changes. so no matter what i always end up right back here. sad, alone and just feeling so empty. and still hurting myself like i used to 6 years ago.
classes are starting tomorrow. i start on tuesday. i was excited. i guess i still am. i just wish i wasnt so fucking depressed. all i want to do is just be numb and not feel anymore. cause feeling is too much sometimes.
what do you do when you feel like your heart just keeps getting ripped out. over and over and over.