despite all teh crap that went on, I of course have to put on a happy face to all the people i know. I did have an ok time last night hanging out with Maggie and Erica watching Dawsons creek and Felicity. We had diner together too and just sat and talked. I hate acting happy when i am not but i figured it wouldnt hurt to hang out with them. Then we cut up apples and dipped them in chocolate and caramel while we read magazines and watched scary movie for the billionth time. I dont know whats with me. these are good things so why cant i be happy?