i actually stayed in last night. on a saturday. haha i felt so weird but i think it was needed, for my body and for my wallet. i keep saying im gonna save up for a photo printer but it hasnt been happening. when i get depresed i drink and ive been drinkin all my money away. so last night i decided i wouldnt do that. its a start i guess. i actually wanted to do school work, but oh i dont have any. im kinda pissed that one week im almost killing myself cause of all the shit i have to do, and now its like easy breezin. fuckers. that whole school...that whole students body, save a few hacky sackers outside the student union and ken, are complete morons. im so tired of these little pretentious assholes running all around me. id kill to go walk around the village with annie right now.
so yeah ive been contemplating my life goals, and as usual i feel like im not in the right direction of where i want to end up. i dont know where that is, but i feel like this is wrong. and psychotically i keep thinking about the city. especially this time of year. its so beautiful there and im gonna miss it all. and its funny cause of all the immensly horrible shit i went through last year at this time, its still beautiful to me. i cant believe i made it through all that. and im glad it made me stronger, i just cant believe i actually went through all that and then came here and went to school and actually did alright. maybe sometimes i should give myself more credit.
so yeah i did some thinking and then i watched a ton of tv. sometimes you need to do that to clear your head. so later vito and i might go to Spot coffee. yay.