so yeah. i struggled through my first class, pushed myself through my second class, and i just couldnt do the third. it was just too much. everytime i talk to someone i just feel my throat swelling up and i know im gonna cry. so i try not to talk to anyone. i just dont feel anything inside me anymore but numbness, and tears. and there isnt a soul i can talk to about it. that really bothers me. so im trying to just go about my days the best i can. trying not to fall behind, trying not to slip into a deep depression. and its taking me everything i have.
this weekend is halloween. i was excited. now im...trying to stay excited. today im gonna try going halloween shoppin with michelle. a few last minute costume needs from hot topic. hopefully we will find some good parties to go to. and then after that i just dont know. i wish i could just fall off the face of the planet for a little while.