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so where are you now? 
11th-Nov-2004 01:18 am
should have thought of that before we kissed



so now im having like the worst cramps except my period is like 3 weeks away....right.

and i completely dont wanna go to class tomorrow. i think im just gonna sleep all day and pretend i dont have any. im just way too run down and depressed.

im on the bus today looking at the grey sky wondering when things are gonna be ok. if they ever will be. and how much i miss nyc. and im thinking how im always wishing for something else. and always waiting for things to get better. but this si my life. my fucking life. and im just wishing it all away. its the only one ive got and so much of it is gone already. im never gonna get it back. and so much just ist going to change. i feel like thats just killing me inside. i feel like my whole life is just death.

i feel like maybe im just in a dream and im gonna wake up any minute now and things will be ok.
Felix- to the left
Comments 
11th-Nov-2004 07:48 am (UTC)
Are you sure it's not your stomach/intestines? Maybe you had food or something?

Damn those uteri.
11th-Nov-2004 05:21 pm (UTC)
no its def like a crampy feeling which has me worried...but who knows, stress can do crazy things to the body
11th-Nov-2004 11:22 am (UTC)
I know you feel like you wasted so much but think, you have so much left to deal with. What's done is gone...

Missing NYC? You were so excited to go upstate! But if you were here I could see you, and I would love that :). We never got to go to all those cool grrl places we talked about.
11th-Nov-2004 05:20 pm (UTC)
yeah i miss it a lot. im so weird lol. either way i have a huge break in december and will be there so we should def hang out then!
11th-Nov-2004 10:00 pm (UTC)
Ok sounds really good. I'm pretty sure I will have that time off from school too (unless I take winter courses) but that is unlikely!

You know where to reach me!

kisses
marilyn
11th-Nov-2004 01:48 pm (UTC)
and now a no doubt lyric....did I ever tell you what good taste in music you have.

I hope you're doing okay...I sooooooooo don't want to go to work today. I can go in whenever I want and I just keep pushing it back. *blah* It's Vetern's Day I shouldn't have to work, my dad is one of those crazy fools. And I spelled that wrong but whatever.

I didn't ditch you last night, my internet went completely out :( Sorry
11th-Nov-2004 03:31 pm (UTC)
yer just too pretty!
11th-Nov-2004 05:17 pm (UTC)
why thank you :)
11th-Nov-2004 03:35 pm (UTC)
:( Thats how I feel - like whenever I think things are getting better and I start to feel normal again it just comes back and I'm depressed again. Its really surreal...

Hope things get better for you soon.
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12th-Nov-2004 03:10 am (UTC) - Re: Hey!
oh yeah most defiitly! i couldt believe you had a livejournal!! hehe. so what have you been up to?
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