so now im having like the worst cramps except my period is like 3 weeks away....right.
and i completely dont wanna go to class tomorrow. i think im just gonna sleep all day and pretend i dont have any. im just way too run down and depressed.
im on the bus today looking at the grey sky wondering when things are gonna be ok. if they ever will be. and how much i miss nyc. and im thinking how im always wishing for something else. and always waiting for things to get better. but this si my life. my fucking life. and im just wishing it all away. its the only one ive got and so much of it is gone already. im never gonna get it back. and so much just ist going to change. i feel like thats just killing me inside. i feel like my whole life is just death.
i feel like maybe im just in a dream and im gonna wake up any minute now and things will be ok.