i hate these fucking movies with these fucking happy people proposing and getting married and shit and i just wanna puke on them. meanwhile i love them so god damn much cause i just wish i could be them and know that i will probably never get a ring or get to pick out a dress or plan a party or eat that stupid wedding cake or get to pick bridesmaids and have a honeymoon.
im not supposed to be that girl. it just isnt me. but you know what? it is. and i want it and im so fuckin depressed.