So here i am in new york city. we went to vitos moms house yesterday to set up the christmas tree and stuff and i decided that since vitos flight to florida stops at nyc id just take that flight in with him. i couldnt see myself being in that house any more days without him there. so yeah she picked us up after work and we went over there. shirley ann and her friend laura came over too and we all set up the tree nd decorations. i was pretty depressed and wanted to go home but i tried to get into it and it worked a little. vito did grading the rest of the time. we had to bring kelvin over there cause we are both gonna be gone too long. so he is coming back the 30th and thats when im going back too cause his mom is having the christmas celebration then and i wanna spend atleast new years with vito. this year is hard enough as it is. and then i was gonna spend time with ken and michelle here in nyc but now i dont know cause there was miscommunication and im all upset about it now. i hate how things can bring me down so bad. all i wanna do now is go lay down and cry. vito isnt here, my friends are pissed and i just feel so alone.
so we are going to jersey tonight i guess. its gonna be weird. but its better then being here. i was gonna go get my hair cut today but i think i might do it in jersey. my family all went out shopping and i just stayed here. i wish this would all just be over.