you think im just talking. but im not. my best friends apparently dont even see it. im not good right now. im really not good. my head is building up so much static it hurts. and no one seems to really care. no im not writing this so people go "oh i care, i care!" im writting this because i need to. for myself. because it hurts so bad that i can hardly take it anymore. my body cant contain this anymore.
and im really fucking scared. cause i dont know whats gonna happen. and i dont know what i am gonna do. i dont care if its giving up, or copping out. because if you have any idea what this pain feels like, you know that just being here is being brave enough already. im shaking, and hurting, and wanting to just slice all the blood out of me.
everything else just seems so far away.
- Music:are you alive ~BSG theme