I just had the most incredible night. First I went with Andrea downstairs to see Josh and Jim and Matt who are also in the film. We talked about the film for a while and then everyone spread up. I went back to Andreas room but then she got a phone call so i went down to talk to Josh.
We just hung out for hours. And we talked about everything, like the fun stuff. I had never felt so good around him ever. and I felt like he was being so open and comfortable around me. I dont know what it was but it was the best. We were laughing so hard at all this stuff and he was joking around like a little boy which i love. And I just felt like we connected in that moment in such a special way. I know its never gonna happen, but it was just the best feeling ever. I wish i could actually find someone like that who could actually be mine.