god i always love that thing.
so the past few days have been pretty good. did a lot of walking lol. went shopping with my sister to H&M and stuff. got some reeeeally awsome clothes and stuff. and it was nice to hang out with her. we havent done that in a while. it was cool to just walk around with her and talk and look at everything. we dont do tht enough. other then that ive just been hanging out with the fam, watching movies and csi and all hehe.
today my mom got me the shoes ive been wanting. they are turquoise and glittery. imagine the perfect "csilla" shoes. these are them. i almost died lol. also...holiday food is gonna make me gain weight and thats something i cant do right now lol.
other then that...emotionally...i havent been thinking of things TOO much. it always gets me at night. and when i listen to certain songs. but i think im coming to realize and accept that things happn that are out of my control. and as much as i hate them, sometimes i just have to accept them. and then make the best of what i have. and i have to learn that not everybody is like me. i have to learn to let go a little. or just let go. i say this now cause i am home with my family and feel like im just on vacation like normal....i hope it carries over to when i go home as well though. and on christmas.
eh. who am i kidding.
ive been going back to watching a lot of queer as folk and all. its extremely sad but also comforting at the same time. and i know that sounds stupid, but in a lot of ways i always felt close to that show. and then how it ended....well. i dont know it just makes me think about things and put things in perspective. it goes a lot deeper then that but i dont really know how to begin explaining it. and i feel retarded that i relate real life things to characters and shows so much. but thats the best way i know how?
so tomorrow im going to jersey for christmas. we are still going there cause its tradition and all. so we are going in the afternoon, mike is going too. and we are gonna get the christmas tree and all. so i wont be online for a little while.
happy hannukwanzmas everyone! (and merry christmas ;D )