i finally got out of my room at like 5. If Josh didnt call i wouldnt have gone out, and only for him would i have done so. So i ate a little salad. I have been having problems with eating again. The salad was all i had to eat since diner yesterday. ugh.
more and more of my happy friends are becoming unhappy. it makes me wonder if its not all in my head. I feel like i am slipping. Like my mind is slowely letting go. can that actually happen?
i cut myself again. that hasnt happened for a while. but i did it, and it felt good. i think i am hooked once again. just when you think it ends.