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To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world... 
23rd-Apr-2002 10:08 pm
So after Vitos class i went to meet him in the math learning center. he was supposed to help this girl with math but she never showed up, so we just left. We went to get my eyes checked so i can get a new prescription. Vito always tells me he wants me to see all the beautiful sights he sees. =) so we are probably gonna get the lenses tomorrow. After that we were gonna go see Jimmy Fallon at Alumni Arena but we decided not to cause i just wanted to hang out with him and have fun. So we drove around a little, and then we found this awsome place to eat. we talked about how i dont show my writing and art to anyone and i could tell he was upset, but then he said he didnt want me to show them to him cause three months from now he didnt want me to be dissapointed. That kinda upset me just cause he is basically saying that its not gonna work out with us so we shouldnt get closer, but at the same time, he tells me that he feels closer to me than anyone. soooo i dont know. but i understand what hes saying i guess, cause i used to feel that way, but at this point i feel like i can trust us enough to know that stuff is going to work out between us. then i felt like i was gettin all mushy on him so i stopped talking about it.

i really didnt want to be without him tonight, but he has been spending so much time with me and i know he needs his alone time, so i didnt push it. And i know i will see him tomorrow...and all summer.
Felix- to the left
23rd-Apr-2002 07:39 pm (UTC)
This whole Vito thing just isn't sitting quite right with me. I've never seen you this happy, and I'm so excited for you that you've found someone who makes you feel this way, but the fact that he's always saying or doing little things here and there to indicate that he's not in it for good...It just doesn't seem fair to you. Of course, I suppose it's unrealistic to assume that every relationship is going to work out perfectly (because if that were the case, everyone would be spending the rest of their lives with their first boyfriend or girlfriend LOL), but the fact that he's assuming it isn't going to work out perfectly just seems so pessimistic. The way you talk about it makes it sound like he's basically already decided that this isn't going to be a very long-term thing, and that's just so unfair to you, especially since you both seem to be so incredibly into each other. I just don't want you to get hurt, and I don't think what he said about your art and writing was fair to you or considerate of your feelings. Don't misunderstand this and think that I'm judging him or saying that I think you shouldn't date him or anything, because like I said before, I'm very excited and happy for you that you've found him and that he makes you so happy. I just...well, like I said, it just seems unfair to you. That's all I wanted to say.

Also, I love your little title: "To the world, you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world." That's so great! Where did you hear that? Also, I can't believe you're skipping out on a chance to meet Jimmy Fallon! What I wouldn't give to meet anyone famous, and you're always passing up opportunities. [tsk tsk] You don't know how fortunate you are, silly girl! [wink]
23rd-Apr-2002 10:06 pm (UTC)
I really hope Vito doesn't break your heart or something. Because if he does, just say the word and I'll kick his ass for you, I've got connections. But then again, you always seem so happy when you talk about him and this is the liveliest I've seen you in months. You sound more upbeat and a lot more optimistic. I hope it works out for you.

How come you don't show anyone your writings or paintings?
29th-Apr-2002 08:09 am (UTC) - Re:
aww thanks hun. i am happier when am with him. and the heart breaking is kind of inevitable at this point. but i think it will work out for the best, even if it doesnt work out for long. i just have a feeling it will.
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